You know something? When it all boils down to it. We are all nothing more than ants. I am sure that I would live as rich a life, if not more so, as an ant. When you think about it, their life has far more order, far more symmetry, far more that actually makes sense.

What if human beings aren’t meant to be. What if human beings are like some vast virus of evolution, swallowing up the precious commodities of the planet Earth? What if the Earth is really alive in it’s own right, and we are it’s cancer.

Instead of accepting your life for what it is, question yourself, question the world around you, and most important question the authority of those at the top of the human pyramid, for what do they know that we do not? What right do they have to shape our future?

I will be the first to admit I am blissfully ignorant. Yet at the same time my intuition is screaming at me every single day my heart beats and my lungs breath air for me. Does anyone truly understand the world they are born into? I fear that we as a human race have lost touch with what it means to teach, and to learn and to strive for a greater good, we are nothing more than slaves unto ourselves.

Greed, Lust, Averace, Sloth when you break it all down, sin is everywhere - all around us, there is no escape. Anyone who responds to this and says “I have not sinned” has commited the greatest sin of all, lying. So, regardless of religious connotations - What is sin? on the surface it’s very definition? I believe it to be nothing more complicated than acting in a way that our socially engineered society deems inappriopriate and wrong.

You can change human nature as much as you want, engineer it, mould it. At the end of the day, as long as you remain conscious of the fact that you have a free will to make a choice. There remains a small glimmer of hope.

I will say a prayer to the god I believe in, which has been with me since I was born. My only religion is carried with me in my heart, it isn’t written in any book. It isn’t preached out of the subjective words of another. It is in the questions that I ask and the answers that I get, it is in my perception of the world around me.

I will know true wisdom, when I know what it is, to know nothing.

As a foot note, I would say “yes, I have” - if someone was to ask me if I have sinned. If you believe the stories of Adam and Eve, when they realised they were naked, they fell from grace; the original sin. We are the generations on from that. To take a literal view of such a thing you could argue that merely to be born into flesh, is to fall from grace - to sin. This is something I cannot form an opinion on at the moment. As I don’t know what it is to have grace, so I cannot form an comparison.

What is you view of grace? Do you think there is anyone that has it? how would you describe grace as a quality in a human being? Is it nothing more than childish innocence servived into the maturity of adulthood? My head is so full of questions tonight…

2 Responses to “Introspective”
  1. well i dont think we ever find the answer to those questions but thats why we have to learn an keep trying an striving to be better people both to mankind an to to our fellow human beings but oh how the world has changed big time!! noone cares about each other anymore the last time i remember humanity from one to another is wen the london tube bombings happened i couldnt stop crying when i watched this whole event happen before my eyes but how quick was it forgotton?? we live in a society of greed an power an i feel the weak just get sucked in they work hard to have all this money but are they truly happy in their heart? happyness is not what you want but wanting wot you have money power cant buy you love nor happyness i believe very few people have this quailty of grace especially now in 2006 the world has gone crazy with the next generation turning on us an each other i mean 14 yr old boys are raping 7yr old girls for gods sake wheres the respect? wheres the love? and where is humanity?no i think its getting harder each day to find what we might call the decent people around on this planet as we are all been driven away to loneliness an solitude….love an light christella

  2. It certainly is a messed up world. Which is why I count my blessings in the friends that I do have :) Thank you for sharing and see you real soon!!

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