Mood : numb

And it’s not just the filling I had at the dentist today either.  My head is swimming, and I don’t honestly know what to think…yes I am told I am “safe” - yet people around me have been made redundant in what appears to be a very arbitrary fashion; something which you may get away with in America, but certainly not here in the UK….  I feel for all those people; for some maybe it’s a blessing in disguise, for others a downright insult for years of tireless support and dedication. 

On the one hand the message being given is one of plenty, the figures are on the up, we’re out of chapter 11!!  Wooo Haar! Yet the other hand - the one so many people never quite see, like a magician suddenly reduces the head count once more (an activity almost as regular as the yearly bonus!)…

So, I am just supposed to blithley ignore all that’s going on around me and carry on working because I’m “safe” right?  Don’t rock the boat!  What boat?  Our boat sank over five years ago, we’re floundering in a life preserver and a dingy!  These latest redundancies clearly illustrate that. 

All I’ve had from the management circle to date is lip service.  “We listen”, “We want your opinions and thoughts”, “We want to ENGAGE you as employees”…

So our office is due a refurb ok?  What happens? They paint the reception area “Mental Institute Brown” (and trust me I’ve seen a few, though not as an in-patient! Despite what dad may say) apparently this is the new corporate colours (oops sorry.. colors! we’re an American company see?) 

So anyways, all of this is making me kinda NUMB where work is concerned, I’ve done this for a good 10 years, constantly telling myself things will change, things will get better…I guess this dingy brown reception area is my wake up call…. 

One Response to “I’m Numb”
  1. Just as an out-patient then? :D

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