You know? I had this whole post about the word celebrity; but it turned out to be a load of waffle; so I decided not to post it. Instead - I just hit the delete button, and started this post. I exercised my choice as a humanitarian :loopy: to save you all from having to read more dross!

In other news, I went and had a hair cut today; from my favourite hairdresser - Ellen! Cute, smart, funny - all the right stuff! If only I was just a couple of years younger, I’d ask her out in a snap! Guess I’m beginning to feel my age after all. My biggest problem with dating is; I like to play it safe all the time, I’m too guarded to take any risks. So - if I come across someone, who I flirt with (because I like them) and they flirt back. I still don’t ask them out; we continue to flirt until eventually it’s just friends… Whilst I am aware of the complexities involved in the whole human mating ritual (I’ve done a little research). I still don’t know (or rather ‘get’) the steps.

I’ve been winging it ever since I left school; I never let myself get close to anyone - not properly, not unconditionally… it’s proving a bit of a distraction of late, and given the change in family dynamics recently, I’ve been given cause to re-evaluate myself. I really need to get a handle on this, otherwise I’m going to continue drifting from one insignificant or doomed relationship to the next. My biggest handicap? I’m just too ‘nice’…

….hmmm, think I’ll pen my letter to Santa for Christmas now….

“Dear Santa, Please can I have a set of balls for Christmas, with a dose of hard-faced guts. Thanks in advance!”