You know? I had this whole post about the word celebrity; but it turned out to be a load of waffle; so I decided not to post it. Instead - I just hit the delete button, and started this post. I exercised my choice as a humanitarian :loopy: to save you all from having to read more dross!

In other news, I went and had a hair cut today; from my favourite hairdresser - Ellen! Cute, smart, funny - all the right stuff! If only I was just a couple of years younger, I’d ask her out in a snap! Guess I’m beginning to feel my age after all. My biggest problem with dating is; I like to play it safe all the time, I’m too guarded to take any risks. So - if I come across someone, who I flirt with (because I like them) and they flirt back. I still don’t ask them out; we continue to flirt until eventually it’s just friends… Whilst I am aware of the complexities involved in the whole human mating ritual (I’ve done a little research). I still don’t know (or rather ‘get’) the steps.

I’ve been winging it ever since I left school; I never let myself get close to anyone - not properly, not unconditionally… it’s proving a bit of a distraction of late, and given the change in family dynamics recently, I’ve been given cause to re-evaluate myself. I really need to get a handle on this, otherwise I’m going to continue drifting from one insignificant or doomed relationship to the next. My biggest handicap? I’m just too ‘nice’…

….hmmm, think I’ll pen my letter to Santa for Christmas now….

“Dear Santa, Please can I have a set of balls for Christmas, with a dose of hard-faced guts. Thanks in advance!”

yes, ‘Hallmark Day’ is nearly upon us once again, that time of the year when all the attached blokes of the world rush round in a mad commercial panic to buy something soppy, pink and/or expensive for their missus in the vein hope of getting some action… just like Christmas - ‘Hallmark Day’ (aka Valentine’s Day) is way over commercialised.

The only card I am expecting that day, is an overdue card from the local library - gee fanks! I never knew they cared?

Seriously though - if I was in a relationship; I wouldn’t wait for one specific day to do something spontaneous and romantic!? I mean you can’t be more un-spontaneous by doing something on ‘Hallmark Day’ go on fella’s!! Do something unpredictable to spice up your relationships, and do ‘NOTHING’ for Valentines! If nothing else it will test just how serious she is…

so…

who’ll be my ‘anti-valentine’ this year?

….soooooo close!! I’m nearly at the 15 Stone something point, actually I’m bang on 16 Stone, not bad considering 4 months ago I was 18 Stone! I’ll stop trying to lose weight when I hit about 13.5 to 14 Stone so I guess another 4 months to go! ;P

Yesterday was fairly eventful - had my brass lesson at 9am, followed by a nice ridgeline tramp up to Lowry lookout and back, I really pushed myself too, did it in less than 2 hours which is all part of my master plan; on the downside, I need some proper walking shoes as my old trainers managed to inflict a couple of blisters on me. I wandered into town after I got back, grabbed a new belt (I’ve lost so much weight I needed to!)… Oh and I treated myself to an electronic (KORG) metronome - I could use my PC but then that’s not quite so portable - for when I practice my fingering exercises and test pieces.

Today - LAZED in the morning till about lunch; then went to collect my laundry which I dropped off at some point yesterday… came back chilled whilst merrily breaking my PC using Partition Magic 7 (so I can dual boot Linux again) then managed to be late for band rehersal through an intricate series of txt chinese whispers! Managed to beat Andrew Weir there though who was the source of mis-information lol! Had a good blow, but I know I could have played better - my head wasn’t really ‘there’ tonight having just broken my PC…(now fixed btw!)….sigh, and now I’m gonna end the evening by chilling out watching the Robert Redford/Dan Akroyd/Ben Kingsley; Classic - “Sneakers”

Ah the joy…. :happy:

T’Is the Year of the Rat….HAPPY NEW YEAR to all my Chinese friends (Jessica especially) =p